Issue 75 (2024)
DOI: 10.18422/75-1790
© Göttingen University Press

Annus Mirabilis: Your Silence Will Not Protect You

L. Lamar Wilson

                        ~for 2020

Audre, have you never seen

A double rainbow rise & set in your

Backyard? I just did only after running

Here when breathing anywhere else

Started killing the We in me. Here, I gallop

10 miles like the palamino We are, unafraid of

Hay fields’ dank air after dark. Everywhere

Elsewise outside is death. I shut out the din

Of 55 buckshots ricocheting off sycamore limbs

& stride this wind until the synapses of We

Unchain our selves. Here, I am not hunted or

Hunter, need no consent not to speak. I will not

Answer calls. I will lie in these sleeves of grass,

Let garters heal my heels, coil my ankles,

Akimbo ussin, as they did all over Alkebu-Ian.

They neither tempt nor taunt like the “ally”

On the Zoom afterparty line I shouldn’t

Have joined last night. You look so sad,

He jeered, his pale mouth’s stink puckering

Like the bum he wishes We’d deign

To kiss. I stare blankly, no grin or grimace

In sight. We owe you nothing. In these bricked

& rowhouses, on this boundless land, paid

In full with whip-smart, bloodied resolve, We

Wrestle not with your feast for our famished

Imaginations. We so full, we get lost in this never-

Ending kaleidoscope, this color wheel

We’ve willed our way for ever & ever &

About the author

L. Lamar Wilson is an Affrilachian writer of multiethnic descent. He holds an MFA from Virginia Tech and a PhD from the University of North Carolina-Chapel Hill.

Wilson is the author of Sacrilegion (Carolina Wren Press, 2013), which was a finalist for the Thom Gunn Award. He is also the coauthor, with Darrel Alejandro Holnes, Saeed Jones, Rickey Laurentiis, and Phillip B. Williams, of Prime: Poetry & Conversation (Sibling Rivalry Press LLC, 2014). In 2019, he was the associate producer of the PBS series, POV Shorts, The Changing Same, winner of the Reel Sisters of the Diaspora Best Documentary Award and a special jury prize at the New Orleans Film Festival in 2018. 

Recipient of fellowships from Cave Canem, Civitella Ranieri, and Ragdale Foundation, Wilson teaches at Florida State University and in the Mississippi University for Women’s low-residency MFA program. He lives in Marianna, Florida, on the unceded land of the Apalachicola, Chatot, and Choctaw.

This work is licensed under Creative Commons Attribution 4.0 International.